..i will fight back

"My Savior, my God on High
The One who has brought me life
I surrender all that I am
Into your hands, I'm in your hands

Bless the Lord with all that's within o my soul
I cry out with all that I am make me whole
Here I stand I place all my hope in you
My Healer will see me through"

It has been some time since i have opened my heart and shared it with the Blogging world... so i suppose its time to catch you all up.

The word that comes to mind to discribe where I am at in this moment.. Attack.
Its not a pretty word, and its not a pretty moment if i looked at it with my human eyes, however through the eyes of my Creator.. its a beautiful picture. It is a sign of strength and courage. A moment of life and fighting a battle. A time of power and hunger.
To be attacked, its violent, and its painful.. I cannot honestly say i fully enjoy these moments while i am in them.. but i know the vital and powerful moments as well as joys that come from being attacked. I am such a danger that i must be distroyed! I am shaking the world in such a way that evil cannot stand to just sit back and watch me anymore. Satan, himself wants to take me down.. and im not going to just let me trip me and walk away.

If there is one thing i have learned about myself in the past several years it is this: I am a Fighter.
I do not like when people tell me i cant do something, or be someone. I hate being pushed into a corner, and i will fight back if you corner me. And I despise when i am told that i am not worth someone's time, or that a cause isn't worth fighting for.

I am so thankful and glad to serve a God who is fighting for me as i fight for Him. A Savior who sees past my many failures and frustrations, and extends love towards me. A King who would do anything for me and my heart. And a Lord to encourages me when i feel like i am down and out.. and saves me with words of wisdom and hope,

 ⁸ “But as for you, Israel my servant,
      Jacob my chosen one,
      descended from Abraham my friend,
 ⁹ I have called you back from the ends of the earth,
      saying, ‘You are my servant.’
   For I have chosen you
      and will not throw you away.
 ¹⁰ Don’t be afraid, for I am with you.
      Don’t be discouraged, for I am your God.
   I will strengthen you and help you.
      I will hold you up with my victorious right hand.
 ¹¹ “See, all your angry enemies lie there,
      confused and humiliated.
   Anyone who opposes you will die
      and come to nothing.
 ¹² You will look in vain
      for those who tried to conquer you.
   Those who attack you
      will come to nothing.
 ¹³ For I hold you by your right hand—
      I, the Lord your God.
   And I say to you,
      ‘Don’t be afraid. I am here to help you.
 ¹⁴ Though you are a lowly worm, O Jacob,
      don’t be afraid, people of Israel, for I will help you.
   I am the Lord, your Redeemer.
      I am the Holy One of Israel.’
 ¹⁵ You will be a new threshing instrument
      with many sharp teeth.
   You will tear your enemies apart,
      making chaff of mountains.
 ¹⁶ You will toss them into the air,
      and the wind will blow them all away;
      a whirlwind will scatter them.
   Then you will rejoice in the Lord.
      You will glory in the Holy One of Israel."
                              Isaiah 41:8-16