Once upon a time..

I once allowed my fear, and my weaknesses to control who i walked in this world..
I closed down and turned off any emotions that would cause me to be weak..
I ran from what i felt God was calling me towards..
I once hated change that was unexpected..
I turned away from people before they could hurt me.. even when all they wanted was to love me..
I once tasted Gods mercy, love, and grace.. and i left if behind so i could be in control..

Now, today.. i realize that with my weakness, my fears, my worries, doubts, insecurities, anger, tears.. with my human body that will never be good enough on it's own.. i will press into God with all that i have. I am not here to control my fate.. i have a will, and a path that was placed before me long ago, and a Savior who asked me to walk with him because he loves me deeply. He knows my weaknesses.. and he loves them. He sees my fears, and the tears i shed because of them.. and he loves me. He has watched me run and has allowed me to have space.. because he loves me. He has given me mercy and grace.. because he loves me.

So i stand now, with hardly any words to express the joy, peace, and honor to be able to serve a King who is the lover of my soul. No one else can ever love me like this! May i never love another more than i love my Lord!