“..What could I say? What could I do but offer this heart, oh God, completely to you…
I’ll stand, with arms high and heart abandoned, in awe of the One who gave it all
I’ll stand, my soul, Lord to you surrendered, all I am is Yours.”
The past few weeks I have been shown by Jesus how largely I walk with a fear of man. It is actually difficult to write about because I do not think I fully understand it yet.
I have been reminded of many verses about how silly it is to fear man, such as this one from Isaiah 51:12-16:
“I, even I, am the one who comforts you. So, who are you afraid of mere humans, who wither like the grass and disappear? Yet you have forgotten the Lord, your Creator, the one who put the stars in the sky and established the earth. Will you remain in constant dread of human oppression? Will you continue to fear the anger of your enemies from morning till night? Soon all you captives will be released! Imprisonment, starvation, and death will not be your fate! For I am the Lord your God, who stirs up the sea, causing its waves to roar. My name is the Lord Almighty. And I have put my words in your mouth and hidden you safely within my hand. I set all the stars in space and established the earth. I am the one who says to Israel, ‘You are mine!’”
Or in Job, when God places a challenge before Job asking him who established the world and gave it foundations? Who made the wild animals wild and gave the horse its mane? God wasn’t afraid to sit Job down and make sure he knew that he didn’t need to be in control.
It seems silly that God would need to give me such drastic stories to allow me to grasp the understanding that I have a fear of man. I also have experienced different situations the past few weeks that have allowed me to see more vividly my fears. God allowed me to break a fast in the beginning of the month, but I tried to tell him “no” because I didn’t want people to see me eating and be disappointed in me. I have also been able to see the ‘people pleaser’ in me and how often it will come out, even if it comes at a price of me feeling less than others.
God is in control! Why is that so hard for us to understand? I have been a Christian for 10 years this June, and I still have a hard time understanding that He isn’t going to mess up. He doesn’t make mistakes. His love is the only thing that is perfect in the world. Yet I still fight with thinking I know better at times, and I still get fearful of what others might think or say about me.
I have followed God to the other side of the world and the times people told me I was being selfish or doubted that this was really what God had for me this year, I didn’t listen to them. I trusted with all my heart that my Papa has asked me to come here for a reason. Praise His name, because my faith has been stretched in amazing ways; and I have seem real life miracles happen on the streets. I have been living out modern day Bible stories!
It is my hope and my prayer that God will keep breaking me of the fear of man. My faith is not for anyone else but me and my Papa. When he asks me to do something I want to do it because he asked me to, not because of what others might say. I pray that during my next phase of this year (DTS) that starts this week that I will be able to give my all to my Creator. So he makes all things good and I will sing praises to him for what he does in my life!
I’ll stand, with arms high and heart abandoned, in awe of the One who gave it all
I’ll stand, my soul, Lord to you surrendered, all I am is Yours.”
The past few weeks I have been shown by Jesus how largely I walk with a fear of man. It is actually difficult to write about because I do not think I fully understand it yet.
I have been reminded of many verses about how silly it is to fear man, such as this one from Isaiah 51:12-16:
“I, even I, am the one who comforts you. So, who are you afraid of mere humans, who wither like the grass and disappear? Yet you have forgotten the Lord, your Creator, the one who put the stars in the sky and established the earth. Will you remain in constant dread of human oppression? Will you continue to fear the anger of your enemies from morning till night? Soon all you captives will be released! Imprisonment, starvation, and death will not be your fate! For I am the Lord your God, who stirs up the sea, causing its waves to roar. My name is the Lord Almighty. And I have put my words in your mouth and hidden you safely within my hand. I set all the stars in space and established the earth. I am the one who says to Israel, ‘You are mine!’”
Or in Job, when God places a challenge before Job asking him who established the world and gave it foundations? Who made the wild animals wild and gave the horse its mane? God wasn’t afraid to sit Job down and make sure he knew that he didn’t need to be in control.
It seems silly that God would need to give me such drastic stories to allow me to grasp the understanding that I have a fear of man. I also have experienced different situations the past few weeks that have allowed me to see more vividly my fears. God allowed me to break a fast in the beginning of the month, but I tried to tell him “no” because I didn’t want people to see me eating and be disappointed in me. I have also been able to see the ‘people pleaser’ in me and how often it will come out, even if it comes at a price of me feeling less than others.
God is in control! Why is that so hard for us to understand? I have been a Christian for 10 years this June, and I still have a hard time understanding that He isn’t going to mess up. He doesn’t make mistakes. His love is the only thing that is perfect in the world. Yet I still fight with thinking I know better at times, and I still get fearful of what others might think or say about me.
I have followed God to the other side of the world and the times people told me I was being selfish or doubted that this was really what God had for me this year, I didn’t listen to them. I trusted with all my heart that my Papa has asked me to come here for a reason. Praise His name, because my faith has been stretched in amazing ways; and I have seem real life miracles happen on the streets. I have been living out modern day Bible stories!
It is my hope and my prayer that God will keep breaking me of the fear of man. My faith is not for anyone else but me and my Papa. When he asks me to do something I want to do it because he asked me to, not because of what others might say. I pray that during my next phase of this year (DTS) that starts this week that I will be able to give my all to my Creator. So he makes all things good and I will sing praises to him for what he does in my life!
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